Non-Stop

“How do you write like you’re running out of time?

Write day and night like you’re running out of time?

Every day you fight, like you’re running out of time

Like you’re running out of time

Are you running out of time?

How do you write like tomorrow won’t arrive?

How do you write like you need it to survive?

How do you write every second you’re alive?

Every second you’re alive? Every second you’re alive?”

—From “Non-Stop” from Hamilton the Musical

I have some friends that are not writers or musicians or artists in any capacity. I often tell them “if I don’t write, I’ll die.” To a certain degree it is hyperbole, but in many ways I believe it to be true. For a very long time, I have felt this urge to create. I have been writing on that topic for some time and may share it eventually, but a large part of that urge to create is that when I am stressed, or sad, or anxious, I feel it much more strongly, often so strong that I feel I will explode (or implode?) if I don’t let it out in the form of creativity. I felt this most strongly when I was a depressed teenager. I suffered very heavily from insomnia at this time, and I remember one night laying in bed for hours, staring at the ceiling while this storm of anxiety and a desire to create raged within me, eating away at me from the inside out. Eventually, I hopped out of bed, ran downstairs to my makeshift office space, and started writing. That night, in one sitting, I wrote my first ever short story. Music also soon became an outlet for this feeling as well.

HAMMOND AND HAMILTON
Non-Stop
Legacy
Unfinished Symphony
Intermezzo
Wait for It
Hurricane
The Eye
Memento Mori (Warning: suicide)
High Storm/The Unimaginable
La Fine/Pain=Creativity