High Storm/The Unimaginable

There are moments that the words don’t reach

There is a grace too powerful to name

We push away what we can never understand

We push away the unimaginable

—From “It’s Quiet Uptown” from Hamilton: The Musical

In Chapter 35 of The Way of Kings, Kaladin gets put out in a high storm as punishment. No one has ever survived a high storm. Yet, through sheer willpower and a bit of luck, he survives. I too have survived a high storm. I too have done the unimaginable.

My uncle died in January. My family missed some bills. I worried about paying my rent. There was a lot of drama in my family, but I can’t talk about it here. Can you imagine? All I’ll say is, I fought very hard to keep my family from falling apart. I fought and I fought and I fought. Not only was I fighting to keep my own mind intact, but I was fighting to keep the family together too. I don’t know how I did it, but I did. Despite the blades of wind tearing at my skin, despite the bullets of rain pelting me, despite the bolts of lightning blasting me to the ground, I still fought. I was going through the unimaginable.

It was hard

but I did it,

somehow.

Therapy certainly helped.

Somehow I pushed away what I could never understand—I pushed away the unimaginable.

And here I stand. The high storm has passed, yet I have been left with wounds that will never heal. I have been scarred. I have been broken to pieces and put back together. I have learned to live with the unimaginable.

HAMMOND AND HAMILTON
Non-Stop
Legacy
Unfinished Symphony
Intermezzo
Wait for It
Hurricane
The Eye
Memento Mori (Warning: suicide)
High Storm/The Unimaginable
La Fine/Pain=Creativity